overwhelming

30 June 2009

10:30pm

 

I don’t know if anyone understands this wild, overwhelming, consuming and wondrous passion that I have and feel for the world.

Some days it just consumes me

and my heart overfloweth

with love

over-bounding, ever-reaching, piercing and true

love

it exudes and i just long to share it

with another

in a touch, a glance, a

closeness that presses through us and

merges being and matter

into one pulsating

breath of creation.

 

The lips of my soul

proclaim the wonder of earth’s kiss.

And I set myself free

my heart is leaping from my

skin and flying-soaring-reaching

for all of existence

eternal, everlasting,

 

and yet, at times it falls

with grief washing over with a

fog of weight

sinking down, further,

and there it often rests

contemplating, crying, closing eyes

tight to all of this, with a slow whimpered beat

 

because with the joy-and all its

immensity-

comes an equal and double

sadness, disappointment, pain

for the suffering.

 

And, I lay and ponder,

how can there be so

much peace in a

petal

while there are bloody warfields

that were once homes?

 

So, you sneak away from the

pain,

in little ways at first, and

then everyday.

and with that goes the joy, as well,

which is just the sacrifice that we make

to forget the pain.

 

Sometimes we get lost there

and some of us stay there forever

or don’t even care enough to try

for a bit.

 

But, then, there are those

that open to it all again

and allow it to flow once more-

pouring over, rushing over,

tossing us up and sideways

and tumbling through

worlds of color and time.

 

And here we are.

And not often can we find others

who took the plunge-

 

But, I will continue to look

and continue to believe

 

And one day, you will be there;

with heart thumping

and eyes crystal clear and

soft from the sweet, sweet

moment

that has begun.

 

I believe this to be true.