some freeform journal writing:
people's sexual energies would unnerve me, and sometimes still do, because of two main reasons:
1. my own fear of "my" "sexuality"
2. i couldn't always properly read others because of my own sexual trauma, both person and societal, that convoluted/coded these energies, which would in turn produce and cycle back to 1-my own fear of "my" "sexuality"
i am ready to say what i actually think, feel, love, express, cry, pulse, communicate, exist as a message and manifestation of
* i have stopped forcing and am letting flow *
more explanation of these ideas to come soon...
